transformed!

my oh my, do i feel like optimus prime!


this past weekend has seriously been life changing. i am SO happy i got the guts to accept the invitation to this camp. so much fun, so many memories! new people, new friends, new family! gahh i cannot find the words to express how happy i've been today! and its only the first day. ohmygulay. i loved the worships we had, the prayovers, the hangouts! the CRYING! it all felt so good! i have never cried SO MUCH at a camp. i've never shed a tear! sure, i got all water eyed.. but ohmygulaaaayy. cried erryday at camp, man! i LOVED it. hahahha.


this camp opened my eyes to see everything. to see all the wrongdoing, the hurt. imagine if JO didnt invite me. imagine all the things i would have done, the things i would have said. i love her so much!


and goodness gravy! being reunited with JO, NICA ANDDD NATHAN? thas wsup foreaaaal!







im so happy i went. GAH so happy happy happy :D


the downside.. =(
daddy doesnt like it.





i'll pray about it. please pray for me, too! need all the help i can get.


i love my new family. & i'm not plannin on leaving! :D







CAMP BASTOS!
may 15-17, 2009

confflict?

so some of you kids heard that i 'm visiting the other side.

i'm not really, yaknow? i miss my homies that are in there! im not leaving you guys. weez weak right now, and ima not bail. so they're bigger than us, stronger than us, happier than us--so what?! so freaken what? we can be like that.

so some of us hate eachother.. its whatevs! we'll work on that ish! i'm not leaving cuh we're so weak and inactive. i'm exploring new things, meeting new people, reuniting with the oldies. i havent seen these kiddos in like 3 years. gimme a break.

we've got drama in our group--some drama half the kids dont even know about. we're gotta grow, we've gotta bond! we're supposed to be a family! why can't we do that? so what if someone's a flirt, or a jerk, or the quiet kid--we'll work on it! we're not supposed to be hating and talking smack on people's back. thas so lame! yeah, so i do it, too. haha hypocrite right there, but i'm working on it, too.

so the whole event is coming up this weekend, and the rest of you will find out. im not leaving! i'll be in both. :) whass wrong with that? so what if the ccoords think its not a bad idea? (if they do, idk, ha.) we weren't the ones that were supposed to split. we're were supposed to be the biggbutt familyy--the youth! i hope we can look over this thing. i'm just exploring new things.

and if you wna join, then do it! we'll be in both together. we'll have the big family that we're supposed to have. of course the gas money will pile up, buts its okay! its all in God's hands from here! :D

love you guys! alla you guys! each and erry one of you! <3

&&&& star trek was the ish! :D